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From Fear to Wonder Opening my eyes to the stars in the darkest nights

The light switch in my childhood room was by the door. My bed was all the way across the room. I was so afraid of the dark that I’d close my eyes before turning out the lights and walking across the room like I was playing some game from the Ellen Show where you make your way blindfolded through a…

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 I have eye trouble…. I see what I’m looking for, not always what’s there.

I love photography. Maybe. Lately, I’ve been wondering if I actually love the way I can control and change perspective through photography.  The picture above is a good example. It’s a beautiful geode, isn’t it? Except, geodes don’t have technicolor striations. If I had taken the pic in it’s natural habitat and shown the backside instead of this one on…

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Noticing The Goodness That Is There, Every Day

I tend to be a little hyper-focused at times. (I also tend to totally lack focus at other times. It’s called balance. Or maybe, ADD.) Truth is,  I’ve been in a long season of hyper-focus. Managing daily life, my home and family’s needs, and caregiving through an entire series worth of walking dead type medical stuff, has made it hard…

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I’m Not Proud to Be a Christian. (Just: grateful, humbled, in awe of God’s grace to me, the list goes on.)

I sometimes find myself wanting to wave a flag and declare:  I’m proud to be a Christian. Except. I’m not. It’s Pride Pressure. Pride pressure is when you see a bunch of facebook posts that (basically) threaten to judge you if you don’t post your “pride.” Some even imply that Jesus will deny you if you don’t repost His pic.…

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Fierce Faith: When it’s not “okay,” and may not be.

  “It’s okay.” “It will be okay.” These are the words I use to try to convince myself and others that it will be, “Okay.” They are not usually words I use when it actually IS okay. “It’s okay.” “It will all be, okay.” Are the words other people use to try to convince me and themselves of the same. It’s…

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Pain- To Be Shared, Not Compared

Repost Warning: Forget about zombies…. we’re under attack of a two headed dragon lie. This dragon is trying to kill what God so desperately wants to create- community. Today we’re gone slay that lie like the warriors of love we are, and want to be. It’s the lie that if we compare our situations, pains and struggles  and joys and…

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Truth, or Dare? In which I discover I hide my fear behind truth…

Truth, or Dare? I choose Truth. Every time. I don’t recall ever taking a dare. I’d like to say it’s because i’m much too mature to accept a dare. Or, that it’s because of my deep abiding love for the truth and my calling to tell it….but it’s not. It’s  mostly because of my deep, abiding fear of failing. With…

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Fiercely Flourishing- Gentleness.

Gentle is probably not the first word that comes to mind when people think of me. Loud. Might be. Opinionated? For sure. Shoes? Probably. Fierce could be on the list. Mostly, because we associate fierceness with tenacity and strength of will. Strength of will? I have. (Sense? Not so much.) Gentle? Might come somewhere after “small feet” and “big butt” on…

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Noticing Goodness..In a World of Hot Mess

Weather Catastrophes. War. Orphan, immigration and refugee crisis’. Personal Crisis’. Health Crisis’. Relational Crisis’. Financial Crisis’. Identity Crisis. Persecution. Human Trafficking. Slavery. That’s what I noticed in just a 10 minute news update after returning home from vacation. Talk about a rough re-entry. I felt my vacation glow burn off like Space Shuttle Heat Tiles. (Google it, young’uns.) It’s amazing…

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That Thing. The One You Keep Trying to Avoid, What If It’s Your Next Step? Fiercely Facing Fear

I tend to magnify my fears through the lens of melodrama. I have skills.  Skills I put to work, last weekend, at the Speak Up Conference. Part of the conference offerings is an opportunity to paticipate in a series of fifteen minute one to one meetings with publishers, agents, consultants and Authors. You are given a list of potential people…

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