The sun warmed my shoulders and my legs stretched into each step like a well practiced-dance. (In my brain anyway .. most likely? Not so dance-like in person. Unless of course flopping zombie is a new dance move…:P) I checked my time: 48 minutes. “I’m making my best 5 k time yet!” I thought.
Which is about the time the log splitter hit my knee/leg. The next step was as far from dance like as possible. I lost stability in my left knee and felt a screaming pain. “A cramp.” I decided. “Walk it off.” I kept walking. It got worse. With. Each. step.
I was only a block from home. I could : A) call home and hope the college boy would wake up and pick me up without killing me. or B) walk back.
I decided to walk back. Each time my leg swung my foot up and into the next step, I had hope that it was better… each time it landed back on the cement, the hope was crushed.
“This is not right.” Was all I could think.
I hobbled home. I must not have any Zombie apocalypse prepared neighbors.. because if I had, they’d have been all over me. I lurch and swing my arms and leg like a zombie chasing down grey-matter souffle. I had an appointment to get to, so I got ready, and strapped the ice to my knee for the drive.
“I’ll be fine by the time I get there.” The drive was fine. Not much pain. When I swung my legs out of the SUV to hop out of the truck, I felt the crushing pain, again. “I’ll go to the doctor later, if it’s still bad.”
It was. I did.
2 sets of xrays and a leg immobolizer later- I’m the same. The ER doc thinks it could be a partial tear in a ligament. Possibly with miniscus involvement, I think: IT HURTS. And it makes me cranky.
I can’t run. (umm the inability to walk, kind of precludes, that.)
I don’t know exactly what’s wrong. (control freak? Why yes, yes I am. I am happier when I know whats wrong. Also: better yet when I self diagnose. 😛 )
This is a different kind of pain from any other that I’ve experienced.
I hate that I did this while TRYING to exercise.
I hate that in the back of my mind I am wondering if it’s from over use…(Read: my own dumb fault.) I’ve been pushing it. and hate the idea of having to start all over.
Now, I wait. Have I mentioned, that I’m not a fan of waiting? I like it about as much as I like pain. (From all this complaining- you could safely deduce- I don’t.) In either my desperation or impatience- I called and made an appointment with a ortho. It’s tomorrow morning.
I am hoping that by making the appointment it will magically be better. If not– then I am hoping that by GOING to the appointment it will magically be better. I would like to be able to woggle (my version of walking/jogging/wobbling) tomorrow.
Right now I’m wondering…” is there a lesson to be learned in this? “(umm other than the obvious) And “How can best use this detour of my life?”
So far- I got nothin. My brain is to addled to write about anything but the pain. I can’t do housework.
So here are some questions for YOU:
When was the last detour you experienced?
How did you spend it?
Any lesson’s learned?
Do you think this brace makes my butt look big?