Everyday-for a week at 3:00, Noah (the youngest) has been dragging a kitchen chair into the livingroom, decorating it- using a pillow for a steering wheel and enjoying his new favorite show- “The Let’s Go Show.”
Until yesterday. When I broke my own Mom Rules,* along with his heart.
In a flurry of Christmas cleaning…. I pulled the “decorations” off the kitchen chair and tossed them into the trash without a thought. At 2:58, I heard a broken hearted cry coming from the living-room. “My art, my decowations! They’re gone!” (still a little speech issue) Tears slid down his face like winter sleet on a window.
This was not the “whiney, bratty” cry. This wasn’t even the “I’m so mad at you, I could kick the dog” cry. This, was the truely- broken hearted, cry.
And, it was my fault.
In general- I have a Mom rule.* (Oh- I have lot’s of Mom rules- but ,let’s focus:) One of my Mom rulesis- to never throw out my kids stuff without their prior knowledge. (I thought I’d already learned this Mom rule- the hard way.) I believe it’s better to have the fight up front, than to quietly avoid it and make it much worse later…
This time- I didn’t even think about it.
I just threw it out. Why? Because, I was cleaning house. I was getting ready for the holidays. (Yes- it takes this much) I was so focused cleaning- that I totally missed out on what was important to my little guy. I COULD have just taken down the projects and tucked them into a folder. I could have slipped them into the basket on the counter. I could have hung them from any one of 50 magnets on the fridge- just for this purpose. Instead. I dumped them into the trash.
Like I said- I was a good mother when I woke up- for about an hour. Then, I got over it.
We had the “Mom’s make mistakes” talk. (Again…sheesh we have that talk a lot) We got the crayons out and set up the printer. Before the “Let’s Go Show” was over- a little heart was mending- and the kitchen chair was plastered with new creations.
I knew I was forgiven when he climbed up on the couch, next to me to show me a new picture….made for me. Tears popped into my eyes. I swallowed. HARD. Then, smiled.
Being a Mom is like this some days- you wake up the best mom ever- an hour later you’re a witch and by dinner time- you’re the queen, again. The Circle Of Mom. You just gotta keep trying. If you fall down, get back up. Color with the kid. Say you’re sorry- then- move on.
Dear Lord- I know- I know we’ve talked about this so many times before—- but-as we go through the holidays- please help me not break my kids hearts in the name of cleaning and craziness… I love you Lord- and definitely will need your help on this one— (and every one) amen.