Fortunately, the sounds were from the tub. And, Noah was in the tub, and I was in the bathroom, supervising.. well- and knitting. So far, so good.
“Noah? What are you doing? Keep the water in the tub” I asked– or actually- TOLD.
“The water’s too high, I BAILING” was Noah’s response.
I jumped up- to find the water he’d “BAILED” before it dripped thru the floor- then the ceiling… (kids bath is upstairs)… There (astonishingly) was no water on the floor.
“Noah, where’s the water?” Now, more curious than anything… (the panic was subsiding…. )
“In the tub. I bailed it to the back” Noah pointed to the back of the tub. Then, started bailing again. From the front of the tub to the back… over and over….. the water level which was “too high” never changed.
I can relate.
There have been lots of times— where I recognize a “problem” something in my life where “the water is too high”…. so I start to dip and bail, like crazy.
Unfortunately, like Noah, I’m bailing to the back of the tub.
I feel fat- which depresses me- so I eat cookies. (Dip, Splash!….Bailing to the back of the tub)
I feel overwhelmed by the work I have to do..so I avoid it… (Dip, SPLASH!)
I miss my husband desperately- so I bite his head off when he comes in the door late… (DIP, SPLASH!)
I want my kids to be responsible… so I nag them… (Dip, Splash.)
I am afraid I may not be able to learn a new skill, so I avoid starting a new project, so I NEVER try to learn it- assuring that I can’t, (DIP, SPLASH.)
Sometimes, I’m amazed at how “stupid” I can be….. wasting so much time… bailing to the back of the tub. Wasting time, bailing when I could have been making the situation better….
Maybe, I’m not the first.
14We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. 15I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[c] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
21So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; 23but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. 24What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? 25Thanks be to God—through Jesus Christ our Lord!
Dear Lord- help me not waste time- energy and life, bailing to the back of the tub. Please help me to see what I need to do differently, and equip me to do it. I pray for wisdom, Lord- and courage to change. I love you Lord- and thank you for rescuing me— from ME! amen.