From the feel of hardwood under my bare feet- to the connection between music, body and soul that comes with dancing- I love every bit of it. I spent my high school years dancing my way through every dance class I could. And- although- at this point in my life- a room full of mirrored walls is my nightmare- I still love to dance. Some weekends, I’ve considered crashing weddings just to dance. Not that I would- but I’ve thought about it. At home- we’ve been known to move the kitchen table- crank up obnoxiously cheesy 80′s music and dance in the kitchen. Due to an aging body- several surgeries and losing what I don’t use often enough- my moves- may be less than graceful- but its’ still fun
I may not be able to dance the way I once could, (In truth-I was never that good:P) but- I have brought one thing I learned in dance class with me into everything I journey through. (HA! It wasn’t a waste of time, after all.:) It’s called: “Spotting.” A dancer’s trick that enables you to spin without becoming dizzy. (Or- arguably in my case- dizzier.) The trick? Finding a fixed point of focus and keeping that in view. Instead of allowing your head to spin with your body- you lead with your head- and maintain that focal point.
I’ve kept that with me all these years. I’ve been using the same technique when faced with life spinning out of (My) control- around me. Cancer is a tilt whirl of a journey- so is chronic illness and pain, financial stress, aging parents ( and all that involves) combined with parenting, daily life and all those responsibilities. On bad days-I lose that focus. I feel the nausea and stress of dizziness. On good days- I remember to spot- and while every things still spinning- I can cope.
The thing is- in dance class It was usually the clock I focused on- or something else in the room. In life now? That doesn’t work. I need something always present. Where ever I am. Something that can keep up with all the crazy. For me- that’s Jesus. Sometimes in the form of a verse- sometimes in the form of his people, sometimes in no bible verse in particular- just the basic truths I believe about God. Like spotting in dance- that requires some work. I have to snap my head around to that focal point.
This takes a conscious effort. Sometimes I have to tell myself the truth- that “God is in control even when I’m not- and he’s better at it than me, anyway.”) Out loud, yup, like a crazy woman. Sometimes- I have to stop the spinning and take a break so I can regain my focal point. I get outside- look around- find beauty. (Usually with my camera- it helps me see things differently. ) I also take time to create. I knit. I often pray when I knit. Or- I hit the bike. (Not literally- that would hurt.) Getting my body moving so fast that I have to focus to keep the pedals from slapping my calves or knocking my shins- is a pretty good way to force myself to focus. On something that isn’t the crazy that is my life.
Spotting. If you’re wondering how I’m coping with all that’s going on- that’s it in a word.
What about you? What are your focal points? A verse? An activity? A place that centers of focus’ you? Tell me! I can’t wait to hear. Actually I think it’s biblical…(Heads up: The part that says: Be anxious for nothing- bugs me-because hello- life provokes anxiety! But I think in context- it’s telling us HOW to not be anxious….IMO- this gives us focal points- for spotting;)
” Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you. Phillipians 4:4-9
Shout out to Curt Harding- who’s recent post inspired these thoughts-